Prompt #15

What is a made-up rule about your life that you are applying to yourself? How has this held you back and how might you change it?

In most Hispanic households they groom little girls from birth to be polite, soft spoken, well mannered, well behaved, they basically want you to be a housewife from the 60s. At least that's how I see it. It's a tradition or rule that I never agreed with. I'm not saying that any of that is wrong because everyone raises their babies their way. It's just not how I want to be or raise mine.

My mother hates that side of me. It reminds her too much of my father. My father is kind of unbothered and free spirited and just rolls with the flow. It's very Aquarius of him lol. I've always loved that side of me. I like being free and happy and peaceful and I spent so much of my life living for others that now that I have trouble finding and creating my own happiness.

After the loss of my husband I could barely function but once I started feeling better I realized the only person I'm in charge of making happy is myself and my kids. But even with my kids it's temporary because then they grow up and they have to find or create their own happiness.

My eldest daughter, Jasmin, has always been strong willed and fiery. It drove me crazy when she was a child because I believed all that bullshit I was taught. I'm glad she was that way and didn't listen to me and questioned what didn't make sense to her. Drove me crazy then, it's a blessing for her now. I'm so proud of her. My youngest, Gabby, is a little like jas but she's more mellow, more self controlled and marches to her own beat. I love that about her, she's not easily influenced and does what she wants. I hope she stays strong that way throughout adulthood. I love that kid, she's gonna be president one day. Watch.

So to all little girls out there, as cliché as it sounds, always be yourself!! March to the beat of your own drum and don't let anyone else rain on your parade. You're fucking awesome!!

#girlpower