NYE 🎉

2021 was a year of experiences. 2022 was a year of learning. I'm hoping that 2023 is a year of peace.

Lets go over this piece of shit year, shall we?

I know usually the expectation is for people to say they're thankful for making it through another year and look forward to the new one. I'm grateful that I'm still here, I'm grateful for the learning experiences, I'm grateful that my kids are healthy, that I still have both parents. But if i'm being completely honest (which is my policy) i'm a little angry at how crappy this year was.

So yes, I'm glad it came and I'm glad its over. And yes I'm hopeful for the new year but truthfully I'm kind of terrified of another shitty year. All i want and need right now is peace. That's it!! No more bullshit, no more learning experiences, trust me, I've learned enough. Who knew I'd crave boring. Not entirely though because that just wouldn't be me.

Tonight December 31st 2022 at 1135pm i am promising myself that i will no longer put myself in situations where i am compromising what i want and what i feel for the sake of others. I have this terrible tendency to want to save the world, knowing damn well i can barely save myself. Haydee pointed that out earlier. It's crazy because i knowwww this!! Sometimes i feel like i'm the most self-aware person i know yet, i still keep getting in my own fucking way. It's time for me to utilize all the lessons life has thrown at me.

I was going to go into details of all the crappy stuff that happened but its none of yall business lol.

Instead, I'll share some of the things I want for 2023.

(in NO particular order, so don't come for me on some bullshit about why sex is before health)

• PEACE!!!

• More tattoos because why not 🤷🏻‍♀️

• sex (who doesn’t want sex)

• I hope i get to travel this year

• well deserved solo trip

• cut down on shopping

• cut down on carbs lol

• growth for my company (our branch at least, our new VP has some big ideas and I want to help her with them because I just love the direction she wants to move in)

• lots more writing

• love - but not from a man, i just want to be surrounded by love from the people i love

• hoping for a better relationship with my mom

• money!! ( i really want to pay off this house)

• more visits to Dave

• I pray for no more losses

• pray for a healthy year for everyone

That's probably all i want, i don't know if its considered a lot or not. I know some of these things i can control and others i cannot, but it doesn't mean i can't try to manifest them right?!

One thing I've always wanted is to make a big impact on the world, not necessarily the entire world, just in my world. To the people around me. It's one of the reasons i love my job. Every day I feel like i made a difference to at least 1 person.

So 2023, bring it, we're ready!!