Dear Dave,

Hi babe 🥰 last night I talked quite a bit about you and today I've missed you, I've appreciated the little things I no longer have and I just overall have been thinking about us and how good we were together. So now I want to take a moment to remember all the things I learned from you.

It's no secret that you were much older than me and because of this I always felt like you had life figured out and I was just along for the ride. I realize now that it's not the case. You were just good at pretending to be perfect, or not perfect but good at hiding hardships. You always told me, it's nobody's business what happens in our lives, in our relationship or with our family.

My mom always instilled in me that family was number 1 and there shouldn't be secrets between us and blah blah blah. But I realize now that you were just protecting our peace. Protecting our space and making sure that outside noise doesn't influence internal choices.

There's a lot I learned from you that I hold near and dear to my heart and honestly I wouldn't want it any other way. I realized last night that whoever comes into my life next has big shoes to fill and that I low key have been comparing potential prospects to what I like about you.

I like the way you taught me to stop running. To face things within our relationship and deal with them instead of running away and giving up. I love the way you still kissed me Goodnight even when you were mad at me. How even when we fought we still took care of each other. Maybe that's why I'm such a softie, but that's love right? You love and care for your person even when you're mad, or when you can't stand them or you don't even wanna look at them. Deep down we know it's a temporary thing and just because you're upset doesn't mean you care about them any less.

I love how you taught me to protect our family regardless of what comes my way. I love and miss how good you were with the kids. I even miss the little things I hated about you. All those little things I couldn't stand, that drove me absolutely crazy. I'd do anything for some of those things right now. I know our love was filled with bs, our relationship wasn't perfect, but I never doubted that you loved me.

When I fell for you I fell hard and fast and I never let go. You're my forever love.

Til the day my life is through, this I promise you.

-*NSYNC

That was our song!! It'll always be our song.

I love you hunny bee 🐝

I miss you all the time, sometimes I feel like I won't ever find someone else like you and it makes me want to give up on love and not even try. Not sure what life has in store for me, there are times I feel just as lost now as I did 2 years ago when I lost you. I just hope that no matter what comes my way, you'll always be there to have my back and guide me in the right direction.

Forever yours,

Your buttercream puff ✨💋