Relationships

Hey y'all!! I just had a tiny conversation and it brought up this thought for me.

Do I actually want a relationship? No!

Do I want to remarry? Prob not.

Do I want someone to do coupley shit with? Yes!

Do I want a steady person for sex and date nights and occasionally a trip? Absolutely.

This is the way I view relationships now. I want a partner, I want someone to text during the day with funny memes. I want someone to go to dinner with and bowling and to get drunk with me at a bar, and then do fun stupid shit. Because that right there is the secret to greatness. Making those crazy funny memories is one of the greatest feelings in the world.

As you all know by now, I'm a widow, I was with my husband for most of my life and I think this little detail helped us a lot over the years. I can tell you about a million stories of us just having fun together. We made so many memories over the years. Our honeymoon phase was full of sex, dates, kisses, amazing conversations and spontaneity. You know that "I have to have you right now" feeling? My relationship was full of those type of moments. That feeling is almost like a drug. The more you feed it, the more you want it. Dave and I were great at entertaining that feeling.

It's one of the things I miss. About him and about having a designated person in general. I miss being in love. I miss being loved. The last thing I would want to do is play with someone's feelings and lead them on because I just miss my husband, because of loneliness. So I'm working hard on being better than that and I think the best way to do that is becoming completely self aware and knowing , truly knowing what I want and need.

So I'll end with this, become as self aware as possible. Learn what you like and dislike and be a nice human, it's free.

Love,

Dory ✨