Shit happens…

What's up people?! I haven't written all week and I'm sorry but a bitch has been busy! Let's go over current events, shall we....first off, Nia Long getting cheated on is crazy. It always makes me lose a little hope in men when women who are considered "bad" get played. Because let's see, she's gorgeous, talented, rich, private, normal and decent, in a sense. And if these type of women can't keep their ni**as in check what the fuck are the rest of us supposed to do 🙄🤔 and don't come for me talking about I'm blaming the woman. I'm not! Men will do what they want regardless of feelings, love, guilt, it doesn't matter how good you are to them if they have a wondering eye they'll follow it.

Now men, don't come for me. I'm not a man hater, I'm not saying all men cheat or anything like that but in my experience, it's gotten a lot easier to cheat nowadays and I think most of you will take the opportunity if it presents itself. I've met very few men who would turn down pussy, married or not.

I've been cheated on by every single boyfriend I've ever had. My husband included. And again, if you know me, like know me know me you know that I'm loyal to a fault with my friends and family. With my partners even more. If you're in my life and I have love for you, I will do anything you need me to do if it's within my reach. You don't have to ask twice, and I never expect anything in return. Some people tell me how can I still be that way given what I've been through. The answer is so simple, I treat people the way I'd like to be treated. I'm very big on that. I teach my kids that. If I ever treat anyone like shit it's because I've already been nice one too many times and I reached my limit.

My heart has been broken in so many ways and so many times that I'm not even sure I can keep track. I've experienced a lot of pain, still do. But I love the way I am! I love being a beacon of positivity and light. I love impacting people in a positive way. I don't like to let my darkness take over and when it does, for the most part I just keep it to myself. I hate being sad.

I don't know if I've shared with you guys yet but I struggle with anxiety and depression. I'm on meds, but sometimes the smallest things will trigger it. There are a handful of people who I'll reach out to when absolutely necessary, y'all know who you are, and I love ya and thank ya for always being there. Those people will tell you by the time I reach out I'm in shambles. It'll be when I can't hide anymore, when I can't control my emotions anymore, basically I'll be spiraling and losing control of everything. At least that's how it feels.

Anyway, enough of that! Back to current events. MY current events lol. As you all know, I have 17 kids and last weekend 2 of them were sick. They're still not 100% better but they're better. Now the other 2 kids are sick 🤦🏻‍♀️ My lil boo thang was sick over the week too, of course I wanted to baby him. I'm a nurturer by nature. I made him chicken soup and brought him meds, favorite snacks, fluids and of course I gave him alllllllllll the love 💕 ( with a side of pussy 😏lol ) there's no way imma pass up that dick, sick or not, I'm dickmatized 🤩😂 now I'm also getting sick and it sucks but I expected it because everyone around me has been sick. I'm a warrior though so I'll be alright.

My work week was long and kind of hard despite it being a short week for me. I'm really good at my job so we made it through 🙌🏼 Kids had practice and I'm at a baseball game right now which btw its way too cold and I had to be here way too early for this shit. #momlife

feels good to be back.......