Unbreak my heart 💔

If someone told you that heartbreak feels like dying, would you believe them? If they said it hurts as bad as a broken bone or worse, would you trust them? I've literally delivered 4 humans, what is considered unimaginable pain, and heartbreak hurts more. Crazy right?!?!

Healing from a broken heart is so extremely hard. The rush of emotions that takes over, the hurt, the irrational overthinking. Have you felt that way before? If you haven't, at least not truly, you're so damn lucky. However, I hope it's just happenstance and not because you're closed off to the world, or to love, or to the idea of love.

I write about love quite a bit because it's who I am. I love love. I love being in love. Even with people I don't like, I still find a way to connect with them and love them in a different way.

Sometimes you have to love certain people from afar because even though they don't hurt you on purpose, they still hurt you. So by default, you have to separate yourself from these people. I personally hate when this happens to me because again, I always find something to love in everyone.

I think that's both a strength and a weakness. I like to believe that there's still good in the world. On days when I can't find a kind person, I try to be that person for someone else. Just because I'm having a shitty day doesn't mean I have to be shitty to others. I feel like this goes over a lot of people's heads. Some intentional and others not. It's so easy to take out your anger, sadness or frustration on others because it releases some of it out of you. But what satisfaction can possibly come from that?

Today I went above and beyond at work, it's something I do often because I like to think that if the company does well, so do I. Also, because I like to help, I like to know I helped someone, that I made a difference. The lady that called my job this morning was so stressed out. I could hear it in her tone, I could hear the frustration, the helplessness and I did what I could to help her within the means available to me. Then, the gratitude at the end of the conversation was what mattered.

The world is so full of chaos, pain, hurt, sadness, selfishness and kindness has become so scarce. Just do good when you can.