Unhinged 🔓

A few days ago I decided that the "roster" is now closed. I don't want to add names to remember, stupid conversations to keep track of, all those monotone introductions and having to tell my story over and over. I feel like dating has become transactional and frankly I'm not even sure we can call it dating anymore. So goodbye (again) to my only dating app, Hinge.

Nobody is looking for love anymore. Nobody is looking for a relationship and nobody wants to commit anymore. Couples are created casually and become a couple by default. It's been my experience that the ones that do commit only do so because they get pregnant or one person is more dominant than the other and kind of wiggle their way in. Whether by manipulation or guilt or just some toxic ass bullshit that convinces the other party to become their partner. Some people win others over by being overly nice. Some of us even get scammed into committing to someone who isn't fully committed to us in return.

"and for these reasons, I'm out" -shark tank

I've been so turned off by the dating game that I don't even want to find a new fuckbuddy. Could I be capable of giving up sex?

As you all know by now, I'm no saint. When it comes to sex I'm very open and open minded. Almost everything I've ever wanted to try, I have tried. Therefore, sex is very important to me and giving up sex is almost a cardinal sin for this adventurous butterfly.

Months ago I had a conversation with my current fuck buddy about accidental relationships. I asked him had he been in one. He said yes. Doesn't surprise me from him though if I'm being honest. Sometimes he can be too good of a guy, and even though I don't see that side of him often I can easily see how someone would take advantage of that pretty face and big heart. As expected, he went on to say how terrible of a relationship it was and how manipulative and borderline abusive that partner was. I felt bad for my sour patch but luckily he got out of it and into me 😏

Anyway, my vagina is no longer accepting applications. My brain and my heart just can't take it. I've come a long way from where I was just 3 months ago. I like where I am, and I'm proud of me for doing new things. A little anxious but I just take my "nerves" medication and keep going. I have a lot of hope for this year. I said it in the beginning of the year and although the first 3 months were rocky I'm looking forward to seeing where the rest of the year takes me. All things are welcome except new penises. (We'll see how long that lasts lol).

Love always,

Your favorite crazy, forgetful, impulsive fish

Dory 💋✨